Thursday, September 11, 2008
For the past 2 days, I have been dreaming of him. The guy who say he loves me but decline my love when I confess to him that I LOVE HIM. Dumb guy.. Why the hell did I confess to him! Now I remember why, it's because Dear said he is going over to Melbourne to study for 2 years and we won't be seeing each other moreover contacting each other. So she ask me to be brave and confess to him. So I pick up my courage and tell him and what did I get, he said he wanna concentrate in his studies and doesn't want to think about girl/boy relationship.
Can you imagine how hurt I am that time? Thank god that I'm the type of person who are open-minded and carefree so I wasn't truly hurt deep. Now and then I still think of him and I ask myself why am I so dumb still think of him when he won't be thinking about me? But seems like I can't help it till I dream of him, that both of us are together. Well, dream sometimes can deceiving as Dream master will think of what sort of dream you will have or what is our own mind is thinking when we were concious. Oh god!!!
On our last meeting, he gave me a cup and should I say sweet of him or what. He told me that every time I drink water, I will think of him or every time I uses the cup I will think about him. Well, he got his wishes true. I did think of him but only happy times. =)
I think that probably it's my time to move on. Find my soulmate among the gazillion people. Will my guardian angel guide me to him/her? I think it's better he not her, her could be my fling in my life not permanent...
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2:28 PM
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