For the past few days, I've been MIA and most of my bestie knows where the hell I go. Reason, I went back to KL for my USGC and the interview wasn't going so well. Some cock up stuff happen and so we have to wait. Hopefully, we get USGC or else UJ is just wasting UF's money.
Went back to KL and I find that memories floating back into my mind, stuff that I don't want to remember comes back to me. It's like one of the song sing by Celine Dion,
There were nights when the wind was so cold That my body froze in bed If I just listened to it Right outside the window There were days when the sun was so cruel That all the tears turned to dust And I just knew my eyes were Drying up forever I finished crying in the instant that you left And I can't remember where or when or how And I banished every memory you and I had ever made But when you touch me like this And you hold me like that I just have to admit That it's all coming back to me When I touch you like this And I hold you like that It's so hard to believe but It's all coming back to me (It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now) There were moments of gold And there were flashes of light There were things I'd never do again But then they'd always seemed right There were nights of endless pleasure It was more than any laws allow Baby Baby If I kiss you like this And if you whisper like that It was lost long ago But it's all coming back to me If you want me like this And if you need me like that It was dead long ago But it's all coming back to me It's so hard to resist And it's all coming back to me I can barely recall But it's all coming back to me now But it's all coming back There were those empty threats and hollow lies And whenever you tried to hurt me I just hurt you even worse And so much deeper There were hours that just went on for days When alone at last we'd count up all the chances That were lost to us forever But you were history with the slamming of the door And I made myself so strong again somehow And I never wasted any of my time on you since then But if I touch you like this And if you kiss me like that It was so long ago But it's all coming back to me If you touch me like this And if I kiss you like that It was gone with the wind But it's all coming back to me (It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now) There were moments of gold And there were flashes of light There were things we'd never do again But then they'd always seemed right There were nights of endless pleasure It was more than all your laws allow Baby, Baby, Baby When you touch me like this And when you hold me like that It was gone with the wind But it's all coming back to me When you see me like this And when I see you like that Then we see what we want to see All coming back to me The flesh and the fantasies All coming back to me I can barely recall But it's all coming back to me now If you forgive me all this If I forgive you all that We forgive and forget And it's all coming back to me When you see me like this And when I see you like that We see just what we want to see All coming back to me The flesh and the fantasies All coming back to me I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now (It's all coming back to me now) And when you kiss me like this (It's all coming back to me now) And when I touch you like that (It's all coming back to me now) If you do it like this (It's all coming back to me now) And if we, , ,
The memories that been coming back to me- Some idiot guy confess that he likes me
- I fall for idiot guy
- Relationship between guys doesn't work out with me
- My realization that I'm abnormal in sexuality *no worries gals, I won't fall for you guys as you guys weren't my type of girl and I'm a bit picky when it come to relationship*
- Quarrel with my uncle and broke the relationship between uncle and niece relationship
- The idioms where blood is thicker than water is all bullshit and I don't care about it
- Cross clean lines between me and my father's side of family members, I don't care you read my blog by any chance. This is where I speak the true from my heart and I don't fucking care what you think. FUCK YOU
- My confession to my parents, sisters and brothers in law that I'm abnormal
Now that I come and think about it, I don't really care how people who read my blog will view me as when they read this post or the previous post about me that I'm Bisexual because I'm proud to be ONE. I confess that this happen while I was in NS and it pop up to me when I saw this girl whom I met on the first day of the camp. She took my heart away. We become friends later in the camp, I didn't know what my heart feeling was towards her till we sat down together and chatted. From that moment, her eyes catches my attention and I was like "Shit, I fall for that girl." At that time, I had a lots of questions popping up in my head.
- Am I normal??
- What will my parents and siblings react when they know the truth??
- Will my friends accept me as who I am, the JC that they knew along or will they look down on me??
- Will I ever find happiness in the future??
- Am I giving up the hope of falling for a guy??
- Am I going to be serious about my sexuality??
All these questions pop up in my mind and I could only say that I don't care what other people thinks but if they still think of me as their friend that they know me. Some people dislikes people who are bisexual, homosexual or transexual and I don't understand those people. What sort of qualification they have on having such perception on these people?? Before they could make their decision, please look into your heart and think before you said the answer.
One thing that I'm worried would be how my family members look at me when they know the truth. All I could do now is just be the old JC they know and keep quiet about it.
I have happiness now, I have dearie and wifey in KL. To clarified a thing, Dearie and wifey are the best gal I ever met in NS over the 3 years. I'm not into a real relationship yet but I hope that one day I found her/him.
ciaoz people... =)
