Sunday, March 11, 2007
I'm tired of being the goody two shoe, the good girl, obedient, always listen to what Mommy and Daddy says. When Mommy say you cannot do this and do that, I will listen and won't do. If Mommy say you cannot join this club or that club and you cannot stay out till late night plus before 10.30pm you must be home. Don't buy unnecessity stuff and spend your money so and so.. If not coming home for dinner must call home and if coming home late must call home and give reason.... Don't watch television till late in the night, Don't go out and watch movie, Always keep your bed after waking up.
I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE!!!! I HAVE ENOUGH OF IT ALREADY, YOU HAVE BEEN CONTROLLING ME LIKE HELL. I FELT LIKE A LITTLE GIRL WHO WILL NEVER GROW UP AND MUST ALWAYS LISTEN TO WHAT YOU SAY AND DO WHAT YOU THINK IS CORRECT.... YOU ALWAYS SAY THAT YOUR COUSIN LOOK DOWN ON YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO REBELLIOUS, I DON'T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK. IF YOU LOVE ME, YOU SHOULD ALLOW ME TO DO WHATEVER I WANT AND DON'T THINK THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO THINK!!! I'M NOT STUPID OR IDIOT, I KNOW WHAT IS GOOD AND WRONG!!! I'M NOT A KID ANYMORE AND I'M A 20 YRS OLD GIRL AND I KNOW HOW TO THINK. I'M SICK OF BEING THE GOODY GURL AND I WON'T BE ONE ANYMORE. I'M TIRED OF IT... DAMN TIRED OF IT... I WON'T BE THE GOOD GURL JACELYN MORE BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MAKES ME TOOK THIS MOVE AND I DOESN'T WANT TO TAKE THIS MOVE BUT YOU MAKE ME DO IT. SO GOODBYE TO THE GOOD GURL JACELYN AND WELCOME THE REBELLIOUS JACELYN WHO DOESN'T CARE A SINGLE THING OF HER LIFE AND THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN CHANGE HER WOULD BE HER MR.RIGHT OR HER SOULMATE. NO ONE CAN CHANGE HER!!!!! SHE'S BEEN TOO TIRED TO LISTEN TO WHAT HER MOMMY, DADDY AND SISTER ASK HER TO DO, SHE WON'T BE LISTENING TO WHAT THEY SAY ALREADY!! SHE TIRED.. TOO TIRED TO LISTEN TO WHAT THEY ASK HER TO DO..
I always ask myself why I be the goody good gurl and always listen to what mommy, daddy and sister say. I did it because I doesn't want to listen to their nagging and them to be angry at me... I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE. I'M TIRED OF IT.. YES, I'M TIRED LISTENING TO THEM TILL I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. THEY CAN BE UNREASONABLE SOMETIMES AND SOMETIMES THEY WON'T LISTEN TO WHAT I SAY...
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3:48 PM
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