a very long story.
it's her

JaCeLyN aKa JC
21 years old
5 SePtEmBer 1987
Republic Poly
YeAr 3 M&E Student
- Diploma In New Media-
STA aka School of Technology for the Arts
josie_buffy2001@hotmail.com
-pOsT pRoDuCtIoN eDiToR oR cAmErAmAn-

current status

In LoVe WiTh KeIvE dArLiN
CoUcH pOtAtO
No NiGhTlIfE fOr JC - MoMmY is HoME

her desires

CareBear
my Family
Tattoo
Adidas shoe&Bag
MacBookPro
Polaroid Camera
Tigerbulb fish
Shopping
Ralph Lauren Polo Tee

them

[AnDiE]
[AleX]
[CyN]
[EsMoNd]
[GlOrIa]
[GrAcE]
[HaNaAn]
[JaMiE]
[J-aNiCe]
[JaNe*]
[JaNnAh]
[JasOn]
[JoShUa AkA mIcKeY]
[KeRyN]
[LiSa]
[MeI hUi]
[NaNa}
[NuTtY]
[PeIxIn]
[35 Cents]
[STS]
[AvReL]
[AlIsTeR]
[LiWeI]
[TrUdY]
[YaNlin]
[ShIrOtA yUu]
[WuZuN]
[YuZhE]

remember?

  • April 2006
  • May 2006
  • June 2006
  • July 2006
  • August 2006
  • September 2006
  • October 2006
  • November 2006
  • December 2006
  • January 2007
  • February 2007
  • March 2007
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  • June 2007
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  • December 2007
  • January 2008
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  • July 2008
  • August 2008
  • September 2008
  • October 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • February 2009
  • March 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009


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    Thursday, November 30, 2006


    All this picture taken yesterday as I was too bored cause I had finish doing my group PPT as I already known what to do and what to include in the PPT. I ask my friend to entertain me but they were busy doing their own group presentation. So I use my friend handphone to snap picture, here's my art piece.... hee...
    Me and Yan Lin, my BF"at the Pantry "
    Me wearing specs and whose behind me??
    Me and Yan Lin
    SUnny and Wei Xin at the 3rd story lawn.
    Me and Yan Lin"the funny look"Yan Lin and Me"wear specs" Me and MOone"the most funny gurl in my class and my BF"
    Xue Jiao and Me"another one of my BF"
    Xue Jiao and Moone
    Yan Lin, Eillie and Me
    this is Moon's group, Wee Yung "the guy that I had been giving cold shoulder to him and we didn't talk for 2 weeks, yeah", EIllie, Wei Lik and Moon.
    This is Andrew
    Xue Jiao
    Andrew acts as JAy's doesn't want people snap his picture
    This is the guy in my class who always blast music and do stupid things in class. SUnny.

    That's all for the day, to be continue soon with more pixture.... yeah...



    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 8:19 PM

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    What do you like and dislike about today's lesson? How would you redesign RP campus if you get to change it? Why?


    I like about today’s lesson is going out taking picture around the school and free time from 2nd meeting till 3rd meeting. The things that I dislike about today’s lesson are figuring each picture that we have taken and how to imply elements of art and principle on today’s problem because its very difficult for us to imply it to the picture as we weren’t familiar with the building and the history of the building like who built it, why the building is being built like this and do you think the building shape’s you or you shape the building.

    If I get the change to chance to redesign RP campus I would redesign the shelter path from RPC centre to the bus stop and the overhead bridge and the shelter from RPC building to Learning hub and E1 canteen, and shelter from one learning hub to another. Because all those shelter connecting each building, the shelter way to each building isn’t spacious and during rainy season, the path connecting RPC and the bus stop and overhead bridge and the shelter path connecting RPC to Agora always flood and the floor will be very slippery for the student to walk to the RPC. Where else same thing goes to the shelter connecting one learning hub to another, the shelter wasn’t connecting to each learning hub and when rains, the roof of the shelter will leak. Once it rains so heavily, even with the shelter one person can get wet as the wind blows the rain direction and the roof leak so the person can get wet.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 8:18 PM

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    Using SWOT analysis framework do a environmental analysis on yourself.

    SWOT analysis is a tool for auditing an organization and its environment. It is the first stage of planning and helps marketers to focus on key issues. SWOT stands for strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, and threats. Strengths and weaknesses are internal factors. Opportunities and threats are external factors.

    The strengths of environmental analysis on me would be keep the neighborhood and the place clean so that the country will be clean and free from disease. Don’t burn things illegally as it would affect the atmosphere of the earth so that it wouldn’t affect on the atmosphere of the earth as the earth’s ozone is beginning to become thinner each time we burn things or use the green house effect on the earth.

    Weakness would be I kind of the person who is a bit lazy and likes to pluck the flower on the road side or anywhere. Lazy is if I don’t see a dustbin near me I will tend to throw the rubbish on the floor when there’s no one to look at me.

    Opportunities would be when there’s encouragement of keeping the environment clean, I will be a very good person and help to keep the neighborhood clean by throwing the rubbish in the dustbin, don’t throw the rubbish anywhere and ask my neighbor to help keep the environment clean.

    Threats would be if the citizens of Singapore continue to not keeping the country clean, they would be a threat to them because it would cause health problem as rubbish does release toxic out when it’s accumulates too long.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 12:54 PM

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    Wednesday, November 29, 2006


    Which team communicated the aliens' message most effectively today? Why? Which team has portrayed it most inefficiently? Why?

    Team that communicated the aliens’ message most effectively today will be team Hong Kun team’s because the way they shown how active the radioactive is and when it’s save for the person to enter the room. They draw the radioactive in different size for each hour, the pink and green radioactive. For example, when the radioactive began to decay, they use different size of the radioactive to show. And when the radioactive is active, they pretend that behind the door, the radioactive was so strong till it’s difficult for them to enter into the room. As time pass by the radioactive began to become inactive, it’s easier for them to open the door and enter the room. These shown how good their team passes or portrays the messages to us on how dangerous or effective the radioactive is and that’s the difference between theirs and the alien ones.

    Team that portrayed it most inefficiently would be Jasmine’s team because compare their ways of telling us how active and inactive the radioactive is different from other teams but using the expression to tells us how active and inactive the radioactive is as you can see it can be confusing me to know when the radioactive is active. The expressions they use did repeat for example Fidah’s already make an expression of crying and Janet also repeat the same expression, when it shown the radioactive is not active, they smile but I didn’t quite get it. How does it relate to the activeness of the radioactive and inactiveness of it? Even though they shown the clock and they use the bottle to represent the radioactive plus they did marking on the bottle so that every 2 hours, the radioactive began to drop/decrease.

    Even though my team’s portray the message is similar toward the aliens’ message, we did something different by changing the coughing part to dying, then there’s picture shown the radioactive (green and pink) the folding paper part but our message was clearly to the audience as we shows them when is save and when is not save. Although it’s the same way of sending out the message.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 3:26 PM

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    Tuesday, November 28, 2006


    Who does u admire most?


    The person I admire the most would be my mother because my mother is the person who gives birth to me, who carrying me in her womb for 9 months, she’s like a father and mother to me because she had taken the role of both job since my father had gone to overseas work, she cares for me and always forgiving me whenever I makes a mistakes or become miscellaneous and angry at her, she would be the first person who forgives me, she’s the person who support my studies and my daily needs since I was young till now when I was in Poly it would be my father turn who takes care of my school’s fees and she’s the one who gives me all the love and caring I need.

    She’s the person who gives birth to me, carrying me in her womb for 9 months as she takes all the good things so that I will be healthy and didn’t get anything wrong with the me as I’m in her womb as she’s a person who believes in karma and worried that she will hurt me. As she’s like a father and mother to me because my father had left the family to work overseas, just to find more money to support the family but it he didn’t give me all the love I want. He only gives me sadness when I know he had affair all these years I make him as my role model but now he’s no longer my role model but my mom. She the only person in my family who cares for me always forgiving me whenever I make mistakes or become miscellaneous and angry at her, she would be the first person who forgives me as I’m one of her favorites child but her favorites one is my 2nd sister.

    She’s the person who support my studies and my daily needs since I was young till now as she works all her way to support me and my sister, whatever we want, she will work her ways to buy the things for me. Now I’m in Poly it would be my father turn who takes care of my school’s fees as he didn’t contributes much to my studies as it was all my mother’s savings and her salary that supports me and my sister and she’s the one who gives me all the love and caring I need.

    So to repay for all the things she did to me, I will study hard for her, be a useful person and takes care of her as she’s the only one that needs my love for now and forever. Even though I hurt her or she hurt me, I will still love her as she’s my everything.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 4:01 PM

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    THE women fell for an elaborate con, actually.From the picture, one can see he is a pudgy man, not so great in the looks department at all.
    But this 1.7m-tall, 50-year-old man, who has a previous criminal conviction, was allegedly able to con women into having sex with him and swindle NT$600,000 ($28,000) out of them.
    This is how he did it: Taiwanese Weng Jiao conjured up a Prince Charming image of himself on the Internet.





    He was 28-year-old 'Antony', a 1.94m tall bachelor of mixed parentage, and a high-flying director with the Walt Disney company. 'Antony' claimed to have his own clothing label in Japan, with a private plane at his disposal.
    To top it off, Weng posted a photo of a handsome man on his blog, claiming it was him.
    And with this false persona, he allegedly managed to sweet-talk nine women into allowing him to take nude photos of them, and swindled money out of others. He then allegedly went on to blackmail some of the nine women into having sex with him and even made tapes of the encounters.
    Weng's 'ugly' identity finally came to light when some of his victims filed reports against him, reported Apple Daily Taiwan.
    He was arrested yesterday.
    His deceit started three years ago, when he started his personal website.
    As 'Antony', the divorcee described himself as 'romantic, a go-getter, humorous and good-natured'.
    He claimed to be a much-travelled man who had been to the US, France and Japan, and worked on the Disney cartoon, Mulan.
    He also posted poetic musings in English, Chinese, French and Japanese.
    'Antony' was so popular that he had more than 400 'good friends' on the Net.
    According to police, Weng picked the best of his female fans, and pursued relationships with them.
    He would chat with them through MSN and Skype, but never showed himself to them. Amazingly, Weng doesn't even know how to type in Mandarin. According to police, Weng chatted by writing on an electronic tablet.
    As for his musings, Weng confessed that he lifted the lines from various websites.
    Yet, he was so successful in his pretense that he allegedly managed to coax his unsuspecting victims into stripping for him over the webcam chats with lines like, 'You have a good figure and an elegant poise, I will get my designers to design a dress for you' and 'if you don't allow me to see your body, I will be very upset and won't be able to sleep at night!'.
    He then allegedly captured these images, and burned them onto discs. The police believe that Weng later used them to blackmail the women into having sex with him.
    He allegedly swindled money from some of his 'fans' by saying he needed money to land his private jet in Taiwan.
    FILTHY ROOM In his filthy room littered with cigarette butts, police also found a range of model guns, and a huge amount of vitamins and unidentified pills. Weng has a previous conviction for possession of illegal weapons.
    When police raided Weng's home which he shares with his aged mother, the old lady reportedly admitted to seeing her son bring young girls home. She also said she had chided him that he is too old for them.

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    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 1:45 PM

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    DAMN BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BORED SO BORED PLUS BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    CAN SOMEONE KIND ENOUGH JUZ TURN DE CLOCK FEW HOURS FASTER SO THAT THE CLASS CAN END EARLY!!!!! I REALLLYYYYYYYY VEEEEERRRRRYYYYYYY BOOOOORRRRRREEEEEDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVEN THOUGH TODAY'S PROBLEM IS EASY, I FELT IT SO BORING..... 3 OF MY FREND NOT HERE, YANLIN, MOON AND XUE JIAO DIDN'T COME TO SCHOOLLLLLL.... YANLIN NEED TO ACCOMPANY HER SISTER TO REGISTER IN HER NEIGHBOURHOOD SECONDARY SCHOOL.... MOON SICK SO SHE DIDN'T COME.... XUE JIAO TELLS ME THAT SHE WILL BE COMING LATE TO SCHOOL BUT AT 9+ IN THE MORNING, SHE TOLD ME SHE'S NOT COMING COZ SHE WORK LATE YESTERDAY.... SO HER AUNT ASK HER DUN COME TO SCHOOL AS SHE SLEPT FEW HOURS ONLY.... SO BORING LA... NO ONE FOR ME TO DISTURB..... SO BORING...... BORING..... I MUST PLAN TO PON ONE DAY.... LEMME THINK WHEN.... I CAN PON THIS WEEK OR NEXT WEEK.... YES.. YES... MUS PON ONE DAY... CAN'T STAND IT.... ARGH!!!!!!!!!


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 1:25 PM

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    Monday, November 27, 2006


    Damn!!! Today's UT Maths was damn easy, I finish the first 3 Questions but the last Question which is Q4 I didn't have enough time to do larh, when I start the UT it was already 24 minutes left. The Q4 was 12 marks and I didn't do it. Damn easy.... Missed the Question larh.. SHIT!!!

    When the faci change team, I stuck with Moon, Cloud and Sunny. What a nice team, combination of Moon, Cloud and Sun, when I first saw the teammembers, I was laughing till my tummy cramp sia. Those 3 in a same group, thank god Sunny didn't do anything else. He finishes the Worksheet and Presentation. I don't understand what the worksheet is about till the faci explains it to me what last week is about then I only understand how to do. Gonna go home early today, my friend wants to go home early so I accompany her go home early..


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 1:23 PM

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    What a day for yesterday.... Doing nothing at home other than being awake by the time of 11.a.m. cause my niece and nephew so noisy larh.. Make noise and run here and there.. Can't even sleep late, yesterday slept at 1.30.a.m. juz sleep for abt 10 or 9 hours only. Then do nothing, read newspaper, read story books so that I can borrow new story book to read and play x-box. I watch both sister play the x-box damn funny, both of them any how crash the car. Then one drive so slow like a tortise and one drive so fast till she had to wait for de slow tortise. Haix.. Play for 2 hours also not enough, after dinner also play this time play madgascar. 4 people play Madgascar, old and young also play the game. No eyes to see, I stay in the room and read storybook. They play till 10.30.p.m. then I oso went to sleep.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 1:03 PM

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    Saturday, November 25, 2006


    My favourite Ralph Lauren Polo Shirt. Damn Nice Lorh...






    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 2:18 AM

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    At 4.30.p.m. STA got a meeting for the helper who will be helping on the party on 5 Dec and I'm in the publicity team. I need to bring the camera or shout for people to come to STA's party on 5 Dec with the theme of Holistas which is Hollywood Styles and the publicity group's need to act as a paparazzi and take pictures. Hope that it would be fun to snap picture and not shouting people to come to the party.

    After the meeting, I waits for Sister, Dion and Moon as we promised to go the Adidas Fairs together. We take bus till Tampinese and change mrt to Expo. The journey walking to mrt station from RP was fun but when we were at Interchange waiting for bus, everyone seems to be quiet. On the bus, Dion and Sister disturb Moon till she changes place to the opposite place. Then I convience Moon to come and sit with me and ask them don't disturb her. Moon come back and sit with me, she even offers me one side of her earpiece to me. I says don't want as I want to read my story book. *Moon, that's so kind of you but I don't want to disturb you from listening to your music* The whole journey towards Tampinese was I read book, Moon sleeps wherelse Sister and Dion listen to music. When we arrive Tampinese, near the Mrt Station Dion says we need to get down there but he didn't get up and both of us waited for them to get up and they didn't. So when Moon asks them are we getting down from here and DIon says yes then Moon walk down. The bus was about to leave the bus stop when we walking down from the upper deck. When we get down from the bus, Moon and I scold both of them larh coz didn't get down from the bus. As they wait for us to get down and we wait for them to get down.
    When we arrived at the Expo, we can't get into the Adidas Fair already cause they are closing it soon. And it was only 7.p.m. and they already want to close the hall. So we go to Changi Airport as Moon wants to hand-in her job application at Pacific Coffee. On the way walking to the Mrt Station and out the Adidas Hall, we have been talking about "cuckoo bird" * chinese* Pretty lame and idiot plus pervert larh Sister and Dion talks about it. In Mrt on the way to Changi Airport more worst, Sister disturbs a little boy. Don't know what he says till the little boy and his mother plus me, Moon and Dion laughs so hard, he too laughs till the tears going to drop. When we going to Pacific Coffee more worst, we all talk cock all the way to the Coffee house and from the Coffee house to BK. While we eating also we talk cock and Dion almost choke his drink on Sister's joke.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 2:17 AM

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    Here is today's RJ question; For today's lesson, when faced with huge obstacles in learning, are you an "Energiser Battery" who Never Says Die or are you a pirated battery who will die along the way? Elaborate more.

    For today’s lesson, when I faced with huge obstacles in learning, I’m an “Energiser Battery who Never Says Die because I’m a kind of person who doesn’t give up on something so easily. Even though today’s problem was quite difficult but after you had summarize the whole problem statement for us and stays longer with us during the break so that we will understand what to search on. If we don’t understand, we can ask you. I know that today I came in late for the lesson, but I still manage to know what the problem statement want. I also manage to tell my teammates what is today’s problem is about as they all don’t understand and what to do on or research on. Whenever I don’t understand, I will ask you or ask my friends who are good in science and ask them for some information or guide me on what to include on the slides.

    After discussing the resource I found in the web, I ask you are it correct or not. Does it relevant to today’s problem and some more what shall we need to find out on. After the final discussion with you before the second break, you give us a lot of points on what to search on and which part to touch on. Then I will tell my teammates who research which part and who do the worksheet. After distributing the job, they did the research and if they don’t understand they will ask I and I tell them whether it’s correct or not. Then when they finishes everything I will compile them up as other’s were still doing their research or doing the worksheet.
    Why I didn’t say that I’m a pirated battery who will die along the way because I’m not someone who will gives up so easily and doesn’t do work. I will only don’t do work when I’m sick or when there’s nothing much to do research on but I will still helps the group and do the research. A pirated battery in our class today will be Sunny and Jason, it’s not that I’m trying to say something bad about them but it’s the truth, Sunny didn’t do anything that contributes to his team and it’s his teammates who are kind towards him and not telling you about it. As they don’t want to create a fuss but it’s pity them as they need to struggle and do the work. Same goes to Jason, he will only play games. Like today, last minute he sends the slides to Wee Yung and the slides is copy and paste everything. Wee Yung told him that he can’t do that but he says he will says the important point out. But he didn’t do that and he directly reads out from the long wordy slides. He even sleeps when my group is doing presentation. My group had been very good reducing our slides and present our presentation very fast but he still can falls asleep but don’t understand when he play games he can be so active. He is a weird person.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 12:39 AM

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    Friday, November 24, 2006


    This video was taken today at Agora, my school wushu's team do the show... My frend did alot of mistake, wonder what's wrong with him.




    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 2:12 PM

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    Thursday, November 23, 2006


    Haix... Today don't know what's wrong with sister @.@ he's down with emo for the whole 2nd breakout. I talk with him, he reply me sound so emo. I don't know what's the reason that makes him emo today. I wonder when is his birthday, tomorrow or 25 September as he said one when the Science Faci wants to know when our birthday so that there's a straight line. As the student weren't in the class yet. I planned to buy him a tortise for him as a birthday present, now I don't know should I buy for him or not.. Shall I believe it's tomorrow or 25 September...


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 2:27 PM

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    Haix... Today lesson is about Myths, Legend, Folk tale and Urban Legend. The faci takes a story from Christian or shall I say Bibble. Here goes her story, Joseph and His Coat of Many Colors
    Around the age of 17, Joseph experienced jealousy and hatred from his brothers. Now Israel loved Joseph more than any of his sons, because he had been born to him in his old age and he made a richly ornamented robe (coat of many colors) for him. When his brothers saw that their father loved him more than any of them, they hated him, and could not speak a kind word to him. As a result of his brothers’ hatred, it turned out that they managed to sell Joseph for 20 shekels of silver to a group of Midianite merchants. The brothers drenched Joseph’s coat in animal blood and told their father that Jacob had been devoured by a wild animal. Joseph was then sold by the Midianite merchants to Potiphar as a slave. For Joseph’s well being, Potiphar’s house was blessed by the Lord. Potiphar realized this and made Joseph overseer of his house. Unfortunately, Joseph was falsely accused of improper behavior towards Potiphar’s wife. Although Joseph was imprisoned, he was able to act as a warden in the prison, at the same time he was a prisoner. God helped Joseph by allowing him to correctly interpret a number of dreams. In the dreams there was a warning of a coming famine. By predicting this famine, Joseph was released from prison, and given a high ranking position in the Egyption Kingdom. Egypt was well prepared for the great famine because of Joseph’s prediction. When Joseph’s brothers came to Egypt to buy food he decided to forgive them. Joseph realized that God had planned what had happened for a reason. Now pour many colors of candy into your container. As you are pouring the different colors, let it remind you of Joseph’s story about his coat of many colors.
    What do you think is this Legend, Myths, Folktale, and Urban Legend???


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 9:03 AM

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    Wednesday, November 22, 2006


    Wow!!! I spend half hour to finish my new blog skin.. Ain't Yullie aka Kim Jung Hoon and CG looks good together but she and Shin looks better together too... Ain't I clever can finish my skin so fast as I download it from blogkin.com. no need for me to think of new blogskin codes... hee heee...


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 6:56 PM

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    Last Monday, I got back from BinTan and it totally spoiled my mood as there's no sun for me to tann. Here's some pixie I taken from and I can't even go shopping..



    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 2:00 PM

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    Thursday, November 16, 2006


    After thinking about it for 2 days and I had advice from few of my friend and they also advice me not to continue this relationship. Face the reality as he is one side of the world and I'm on the other part of the world. So I had write him an email of my answer, here's what I write to him.
    Hey...

    I just want to tell you that I'm not so confidence in long distance relationship as I think that long distance relationship is a bit risky as I don't know you so well and you also don't know me so well. Even though I say "I love you" to you as a friend and I doesn't want you to think that I really fallen in love with you as I myself also don't know what's my feelings towards you. If I hurt your feelings, I would say that I'm so sorry that I given you hope and say no to you. Moreover, you still had 3 more year only you will finish your job and I still have 2 more year to finish my diploma. We maintain as friends and depends on the fate whether we will have the chance of being together with each other or not. You can go find other girl who is much better then me and who can take care of you.
    Hopefully what I write here won't be hurting him or making him sad.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 3:23 PM

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    Wednesday, November 15, 2006


    I'm really torn apart as there's this guy I know from internet told me that he love me after few times of msn-ing each other. I don't know that I really love him or not. I feel so bad for giving him hope for liking me but I can't stop someone who likes me. When he told me that he is willing to apply for leave for me if I want to go to Paris or Australia and he also says that he will buy Apple laptop for me and he says he really cared for me. He don't mind buying me those things but I don't it's real or not as there's a lot of liars out there in the real world. When he told me that he print my picture and put it on his study table. His roommate saw the picture and tease him at his working place. He even didn't went for work yesterday after the school connection got disconnected, he say he was so sad. When he saw my email, he says he's happy. So I'm torn apart. I ask my friend for advice when he asks me to be his GF. My friend say that it's a risky for having a long distant relationship. As I don't know him so well and who knows he's a cheater or what so ever. But I don't know whether I love him or not. When he told me that he love me, I feel a bit happy and I don't know, I really don't know I love him or not. When I reply him "I LOVE YOU" he says he is so happy.
    Well, I really don't know about my feelings. Can someone guide me or tell me whether I should be his GF? When he told me he's not handsome, I told him "yes, he really not handsome" he seems heartbroken. But I can't help it as it's the truth. He sounds sad and when I told him what my friend had says, he seems more heartbroken. He told me when he saw what I write he don't know why he cried. And here's what he write to me in the email :
    hello and hi... feel sorry if i`m say such words,,,i`m a bit emo when heard that you 50% 50% on me...i know i`m not good person ever,,,and maybe i`m not the one you dream of...i dunno using sweet words..but i know how to love someone...just now i feel sad so much and i feel worst...you make my tear fallen...you make me cry a lot....i`m sorry for everything...up to you if you want to leave me..thanks for 2 days became my GF..i`m happy a lot...i enjoyed these 2 days.....i wish i could rewind this life again and again....what just i can do ..i just normally person...i`m sorry for all....what i do....i dun want see you hurts a lot...i wan you happy...just ignore me...i can live with it..now i know i`m always a looser...have a happy day...bye
    I walk a lonely roadThe only one I that have ever knownDon't know were it goesBut its home to me and I walk alone I walk this empty streetOn the Boulevard of broken dreamsWhere the city sleepsAnd I'm the only one and I walk alone I walk aloneI walk aloneI walk aloneI walk a... My shadows the only one that walks beside meMy shallow hearts the only thing that's beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will find meTill then I walk alone I'm walking down the lineThat divides me somewhere in my mindOn the border line of the edgeAnd were I walk alone Read between the lines of what'sFucked up and every things all rightCheck my vital signs to know I'm still aliveAnd I walk alone I walk aloneI walk aloneI walk aloneI walk a... My shadows the only one that walks beside meMy shallow hearts the only thing that's beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will find meTill then I walk alone I walk aloneI walk a... I walk this empty streetOn the Boulevard of broken dreamsWere the city sleepsAnd I'm the only one and I walk a.. My shadows the only one that walks beside meMy shallow hearts the only thing that's beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will find meTill then I'll walk alone! i love you where ever you are...KhaySlay
    When I saw his email, my heart a bit broken and I doesn't know that I really did hurt him. I do really feel like crying when I read what he write for me. Now he makes me think back should I accept him or not. Can You give me sometime and think about? I really hope that you will give me sometime to think over about it.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 4:55 PM

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    I'm so worried for my younger sister, she's havin her PACT exam today and she doesn't seems to do much practice. I still hope that she did well for her PACT exam so that she won't waste my sister's money. I have faith that she will pass the exam, DEAR ARCHANGEL, PLEASE HELP HER TO PASS ALL HER TEST. I KNOW IT'S A BIT LATE FOR ASKING YOUR HELP BUT I REALLY HOPE YOU CAN HELP HER.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 1:13 PM

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    Tuesday, November 14, 2006


    Today's RJ question was "REFLECT" . What an interesting topic or question my facilitator gave us to think about. So let me reflect back what had happen in the class for the day when my relief faci come in to relief for Shue Sum. Well, I came late to the class and when I come into the class I found you quite friendly as you greet the person who came in the class. Then by the time of 8.45.a.m. you ask us whether we should wait for other classmates to start the problem statement. I told you that it’s depend on you as you are the facilitator in class and you have the stand to start the class or not. Then you ask us to read out the problem, after 2 guys had read the problem statement, you request for a girl to read and Dion recommend Hong Kun to read because he is my sister. And Hong Kun asks me to read it in the end its Cloud who read it out.

    When you heard Dion’s and Ivan’s group says that they will be closing the shop because the problem is a bit bored and difficult. Then you say that there will be no presentation and we need to do worksheet and for the 3rd meeting there will be a debate between science and religion that had the greater impact on mankind. Everyone is very happy as there’s no need to do presentation but only debate and it’s a group combination between two team. So what we need to do is just do a bit research on the impact of religion on mankind. On the 2nd meeting, you states that my group didn’t says much during the quiz it’s because the worksheet question is a bit hard and makes us don’t know whether it’s correct or not. That’s why we didn’t say or speak much. As for the debate, I don’t have much to say as it’s a much hit topic.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 4:05 PM

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    Monday, November 13, 2006


    You muz be thinkin why I didn't had my dine yesterday! It's because I had my lunch around four plus in the afternoon that’s why I din had my dine. By the time I reach home it’s already 8+ in the night and I’m lazy to spread butter and ham on my bread moreover I scared that I can’t sleep after taking my dine. So I when to sleep but my niece and nephew was playing outside at the living room and they create loud noise. It makes me difficult to sleep when the surrounding is so noisy and the weather is damn hot. Plus my sister is sms-ing in the room and reading story book. How can I have my peaceful sleep? So whenever I felt that they are too noisy or disturbing my sweet sleep, I will ask them to keep quite. Or I will scold people as they are disturbing me. By the time they went to sleep, I already can’t sleep. When I want to sleep, it’s already time for me to go to school already. Damn sleepy lorh and I had UT on that day. When I went to school today, I was so sleepy and I keep on yawning and I didn’t know what I am talking when the faci ask me question. So I can be sure that I won’t get any A’s for that day. I can be 100% sure one. There goes my A.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 12:04 PM

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    Friday, November 10, 2006


    Hello!!!! It's been too long i didn't online already... here's some update i have, few picture taken on sunday..


    see--> that's me and Yan Lin... she's pretty rite...

    that fella with fake smile is Wee Yung, Me and Yan Lin
    Smiles!!!! camera is jux going to snap picture for us.. smileeee.^.^
    taken on de side way... she more pretty den me rite...
    here's side way picture of Nick from Mi Lu Bing
    he look at me when i want to take his picture.... he's damn cute rite..
    this another member of MI LU BING, he oso very cute...




    I got a friend who is an idiot, i msn him and he didn't reply my message. I saw him this morning when I was walking to school and he was just few metres from me. He didn't even notice me lorh.. My friend thought that I come to school with him just because he was in the class before me and i say nolor... Then before the 2nd break, I was damn sleepy lorh and I wasn't paying attention on what my friend nor what the faci says. My sister told me to buy a cup of coffee to keep myself awake. And some of my friend says that he's my best friend, I say no. And my other friend even says out loud yes.. I must admit my class, there's no cute guy or Handsome guy.. hehehe...



    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 9:04 PM

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    Monday, November 06, 2006


    Let me share a story with you. On September 5th 1987 which is 19 years ago, there’s a family of 5 people was waiting for the arrival of a baby boy but to their disappointment it was a baby girl. For the first five years for the little been a happy times as daddy was always around her, buy toys for her and pamper her with his loves also loves from mommy and sister. When the little girl was 4 years old, her mummy gets pregnant and she felt out of love from her mommy. Whenever she saw her sister or anyone who touches her mommy tummy, she will get jealous and when mommy asks her to talk with the baby, she will knock the baby in her mommy tummy’s with her head. Then daddy scolds her and told her that she shouldn’t do that. When she was 5 years old, mommy gives birth to baby sister, the more she felt her love from mommy is lesser as there’s new baby in the family. Moving from sleeping with mommy, she shares room with her 2nd sister. When she was 7 years old, she was playing with her sister in the living room, she uses the rubbish bag to cover her little sis who is only 2 years old and let her walk nears the stairs and see her little sister fall down the stairs. At that time, daddy wasn’t in Malaysia anymore or in the house, he was working overseas as there’s another burden in the family. He only returns home 2 weeks to 3 weeks that’s only his travel between Singapore, Sabah and Sarawak. When the little was going to primary 1, daddy wasn’t there to send her to school; daddy was working overseas at China. So every time she sees other children goes to school with parent or daddy come and fetch them home or daddy come and collect their child report card on parents meeting with teacher, her daddy won’t be there, only mommy or sister who are coming to collect for her.

    When she reaches her teenage youth, daddy wasn’t there to sees her grow up as daddy always overseas and once or twice a year only he comes back. The little girl began to feel that she doesn’t need daddy anymore as it was mommy who raises her up throughout entire growing up progress. It was mommy who is always there for her, when she needs daddy, he wasn’t there for her. When it was her birthday, daddy didn’t wish nor buy birthday gift for her as daddy already forgets about her birthday. Whenever her birthday was coming, she always wishes that daddy would at least bought a birthday gift or cake for her and when it was her 14th birthday, daddy brings her to theme park and at night, he bought a cake and celebrate with her as that’s what she hopes to celebrate with her family but to her worst nightmare, her wishes didn’t come true as daddy wants her to celebrate her birthday with cousin, nieces, uncles, aunties, nephews and grandma. When she was 18 years old, her worst nightmare appear. Her daddy was having an affair with his secretary and it was her sister who hires people and uncle who is staying at Hong Kong who breaks the news to her when it was before her 2nd sister wedding night. When she heard bout her daddy having affairs outside, she wasn’t sure that she was able to take it as the day after her sister wedding; she will be having her SPM exam which is equivalent to O level here. She felt her whole world is collapsing as her all time daddy was cheating her mommy. She felt betray and she doesn’t know how to tell her mommy. Her elder sister told her not to tell her mommy. Beginning of this year, her elder sister finally tells mommy and mommy cried. Mommy even thought of divorcing with daddy but she doesn’t know how to say it out. Mommy has thought of divorcing daddy long time ago, but she doesn’t dare to as her 3 daughter is still young even though her eldest and second daughter already married. And she knows that daddy also scared to confess to mommy, that’s why daddy didn’t tell mommy. She right now is very angry with her daddy and she vows that no matter what happen in the future to her daddy, she doesn’t care what happen to her daddy. For her daddy trying to payback the time he doesn’t spend with her, daddy is sending her money and letting her study any course that she likes. He doesn’t even dare to scold her as he has to remember that he doesn’t raise me up since I was small and he don’t even try to hurt my mommy. He will regrets it if he did that and the little girl was ME.


    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 7:46 PM

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    Sunday, November 05, 2006


    For the last 2 weeks I've been too busy to update my blog and read my frends blog... So to make up to the unupdating times, here's some pixie I took on 3 Nov 2006 at City Hall, Singapore Biennale....


    The pixie below shown is the time money.... *wooo!!!! money!!!*

    There's phoenix in the art, can you see them??
    The politic issues in Sri Lanka...*the snakes represents the people's in the politics trying to reach out to the people by media*
    The art is about Africa's issues... *that's wht Nelson Mendala wears when he was in jail*Also about Africa's issue...
    Look closely, can you sees graveyard??
    The clock is ticking... four different clock is ticking...Is ur times up already??

    The artist name....
    I wasn't allow to take this picture and .......
    this picture, that's wht the people who is working at the Biennale tells me...
    the artist who did a artwork on graveyard!!!
    artist name...
    this is DOnna Ong's creation... using fork,spoons, and etc to make an art..
    Donna Ong's creations....
    using chacoal to make an art piece by an African artist..
    Africa art piece.. 3 prisoners about to hang by the judge..
    an errie art piece by a Philipino artist



    that's all folks... for now....

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    You know you love me, xoxoxo JaCeLyN SiN; 12:03 AM

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